Day 9

So, today is the second day without doug. i've eaten terribly. I was tired, haven't exercised. went to the park with beth. It was nice. penny needs to go to the park more often. I actually fell asleep with the kids around 9:30 and woke up at midnight. simon woke not much longer after that so i fed him and snuggled him thinking i was going to go back to sleep. the problem is, i left the house crazay and not locked up. the garage door was open with the light on and the dishes were overflowing in the sink and there was a cooking crock with tonights tuna casserole still in it.

yuck. i had to get up. i had to clean up. the cleaners are coming early tomorrow. like, 8:30. there wouldnt' be anytime to clean in the morning and it would be SOOO much harder do get it done with both babies needing me, as they usually do all day.

So, i got up. i cleaned up the kitchen, closed the garage, locked the doors. most were locked, actually, but just made sure things were put to bed. and now i'm sitting here 3 hours later, STILL awake. blogging, shopping, surfing, loving design blogs. I really want to take illustrator and photoshop. really bad. I miss doug. he's in new york. it's his birthday today and i wish i could send him something awesome. but it can't really. i have lots of limitations. i hate that.

just texted him. he's starts at 7, hopefully he'll get it.