so now, today

there was a ton of meyhem with my trip to New York. I realized that the kids are out of school and that maya's baptism is on the 18 so mom and dad couldnt come down and watch the kids anyway. so then i decided to check out flights from vegas on virgin america. turns out there are really cheap flights with 3 full days in new york for super super cheap. but i had already bought my other ticket. so now i have spent a total of 700 dollars getting there and i am feeling really really guilty. we have no money. i am seriously interested in cutting back all spending. i spent so much on fixing up the house, just when i should have been spending nothing at all. i did the opposite. i am so happy and content with the house now that it is hard to begrudge it but i hate all that debt sitting out there. ugh... the burtons are coming to new york which is so awesome and perfect except for the fact that they have money and they totally know how to blow it out. we've been talking all day about how were going to blow it out in new york and i feel like i have been lying to myself or pretending with her. blah......... cant get a good read from doug, he is busy. i am sure he hates me spending more money. i miss him. it is only day 3.

Book of Mormon Video

Tonight we reshot our Book of Mormon video. we shot it on Saturday but, sadly, i shot it vertically on my iphone and it was all stretched out and wierd in imovie. So, we got to do it again. and ya know, i'm kinda glad we did. it was a little flippant and this one feels more reverent, but funny with the babies being themselves.

we did enos. i was outside shooting the little ones and waiting for sophie and owen when sophie came out and told me that she thought she had started her period. i hugged her and we talked a little bit about it. i went and got her some pads today and dropped them off at school. i need to make sure and take some time to answer questions or see how she's feeling. her friends at school are really supportive and they talk a lot about this it seems. just want to make sure she knows i am here for her. life is pretty chaotic and i dont want this to get lost in the shuffle of things.

No words can express how much i hate putting penny to bed at night.

thanksgiving

could not have been any better. seriously. kelly and her family came in tuesday night and went to disneyland wednesday. carter and erin showed up wednesday afternoon, grandma and grandpa wednesday night.

Rachel and brandon are in toronto, he is shooting a pilot so their house is vacant, so carter and erin and their family and mom and dad slept over their and all weekend we all went back and forth, back and forth. it was total perfection. food was good, the house looked great. finally got it all finished.

doug and i saw The Last Three Days last night with russell crowe and elizabeth banks. it was a crazy movie. we went to kuru kuru sushi and then down to the hollywood arclight.

i was pretty moody. didn't talk much. doug and i were kind of a misfire while he was home this weekend. i felt like while he was gone, i was able to grow and when he comes home, i end up trailing him like a puppy, not able to make any decisions until i ask him. he bully's his opinion onto everyone, especially me. i told him this and i think it sent him introspective. he feels like he is failing at at every corner of his life. concerns about the last feature (BFF and Baby), concerns about the next feature (Maladies)

this morning, penny had her dolls out in the hallway and sophie walked by and stepped on one of the dolls. Penny got so mad, "sophie, you stepped on my doll! you go to time out!" she took sophie by the hand, marched her into my room and closed the door. "time out, sophie." and didn't let her out until finally i said we needed to get to school.

Simon was playing in his crib and started saying, "look, look." i looked over and he was holding a starwars guy out so i could see. "look."

He said it again in the car today. so cute!

penny just dressed herself and she told me she was getting ready for a party. she has a skirt, with a tank top dress over it. both very clashy patterns, of course. with her running shoes on the wrong feet. going to a party.

oh, was was the other funny thing she said. it was about the cleaners that came yesterday. Mom, they cleaning my bathroom!, they cleaning my kitchen!.

doug is coming home today. very excited. very tired.

today

Today.

simon had an acid poop. his bum was so so red.

penny was amazing at potty training today. we were at ikea and she told me she had to go pee pee and she held it until we got to the front of the store.

Sophie taught Owen the word brain fart, which made him practically shoot top ramen out of his nose.

Sophie and I raced across the field after basketball practice and i was feeling so fast. she was like, i'm jogging. i was like, oh right. and then she was like, watch me. and then she put on the gas and absoluely schooled me. she was SOOOO fast. crazy fast.

simon is such a good boy. he walked around and kept himself busy all afternoon. he woke up 2xs last night and i brought him in to the bed with me and i slept with him all snuggled up to me for a few hours. i was heaven. i love his breath right in my face. baby breath doesn't last long so i am enjoying it now.

oh, before we went out to run our errands this morning, penny decided to pack her back pack with snacks. she went to the fridge and got ranch dressing, balsamic viniagrette and caramel sauce and put each one in her backpack. "i got snacks, mom!" she yelled on her way to the car.

its 10:30 and all i want to do is have everyone in bed so i can clean or sleep or whatever. sophie still has a test to study for, owen is too afraid to do anything by himself: brush teeth, lay down in a bed walk in the hallway. and then penny slept from 3:30-6:30 so there is no way she is going down

everyone except grandma and grandpa come in tomorrow night. hope i will be ready, i feel almost there.

today is the 5 year anniversary of when doug's dad passed away. poor rolyne. i really hope i get doug longer than doug's mom had his dad. i know there is a purpose/place/time for everything but i do hope we get to be old together.

Tonight penny made herself a jam sandwich. i heard owen making himself a pb and j and assumed he made one for penny as well.

i said, thanks for making penny a sandwich, owen!

I didn't make that, mom.

Penny said, "penny made it. penny do it, mom!"

she climbed a stool and spread jam on both sides and put it together. then she came into the family room, found my computer and decided to use it as a plate.

hmmm.

i was very impressed.