things i dont want to forget

• simon saying, 'my mama'
• penny pooping on the toilet. the training begins.
• owen loving comics. need to go to the library tomorrow. it fuels drawing in him. must nurture.
• sophie telling me that her friend kimi's mom is a lesbian. she said, i don't want you to be all judgie but kimi's mom is a lesbian. her name is stormy. i said, sophie, i wont be judgie. weve talked a lot about this and that its not ok for us. specifically you. but people are going to do what they're going to do and i'm sure she's really nice. stormy the lesbian. she said, ok, but can you not call her 'stormy the lesbian?"
• owen threw up at school today. i got so sick yesterday then sophie last night and owen today. babies are ok for whatever reason. at one point around 8:30, i was so sick and laying in my bed, sophie was in the bathroom throwing up, penny had just burned her fingers on a lamp and was wailing on my chest and simon was screaming at the top of his lungs in his crib. he wasn't quite ready to go to sleep but i NEEDED him to go to sleep. at that moment, owen came up and said, mom...i have a joke for you. then he looked around at all the chaos and said, "is now not a good time?"
• it's 4 am and i cant go to sleep. just thinking and thinking and thinking.
• how can i be a better mom, a better person. how do i get my kids really good at something. excel in something, specifically music??? i want them to be good at an instrument so badly and can't seem to get over that hump no matter how much money i spend. need help.
• mendi had a hysterectomy last week after delivering her 4th baby. i am sad for her.
• dougs feature is almost wrapped. we need money. feeling nervous.